Viva La Popcorn

(originally posted on Myspace)

Viva La Popcorn
Category: Romance and Relationships

Oh me, oh my. Here I am again, in the same situation I always manage to get myself into. I don't know how much sleep I'm gonna get tonight. I love this town...
John would die of shock if he knew what I was up to down here. He always had a bit of an obsession with analyzing me to death. I would sometimes tell him I wasn't one of his patients and we'd both laugh. For the most part, I'd say I'm doing pretty well for myself so far. I have made some good choices that have landed me some good times, cool friends, and fun surprises. And let's not forget the boys. I haven't even started school yet, and I can feel it shaping up to be an awesome semester in that regard.
Having returned to my "old self," I giggle a little at the thought of being a shameless flirt. It's true. And I am happy to say that I have met at least one person who can throw it right back in my face and I love it. Some have the "super sensitive" style (which is the hardest for me to adjust to) but this handful makes my situation fun, regardless of whether or not I want it to amount to anything.
School will be starting in a couple days, and I'll make new friends in no time. I won't have to feel like such a stalker (I have stalker-phobia.) Every other day feels like a lot to me. Surely, I'll make up mind about some guy (or maybe I already have...) and start to fall hard before I really even know what hit me. I'll convince myself that we know each other well enough, and he'll do the same. It will be a fun time, and I'm looking forward to it...
Or am I? I'm only cute and young once. I know for a fact that I'm young, and, well, I feel a lot cuter now than I ever have before. It's fun to play it up, I suppose. I guess I'll just have to see what pans out. Either way, I'm excited. Everyone I have met has been so cool.
Eventually, I am probably going to give in and commit to some fella, even though I probably shouldn't. I probably shouldn't eat popcorn at 2:30 am (it gives me weird dreams,) but that fact isn't really going to keep me from doing it, is it?

VIVA LA POPCORN!

Song List

(originally posted on Myspace)

Song List

I made a soundtrack to what describes my friends and thoughts in Logan.

Freshman Year
ANTHEM: "Holiday" by Green Day
Friends
Jaime-Swing Life Away by Rise against
Chris-"Hurt" by Johnny Cash
Drew-"White and Nerdy" by Weird Al
Mike-"Peanut Butter Jelly Time
Lil Mike-"Numa Numa"
Tran-"Trapper Song"
Kate-"My Humps"by black Eyed Peas
Matt-"The Distance" by Evan and Jaron

Summer in Logan
ANTHEM: "Here for the party" by Gretchen Wilson
Dating Rich: "Hands Down" by Dashboard Confessional
Friends
Linda-"Girls Just wanna Have Fun"
Chris-Weird Al's Polkas
John-"Boot Scootin Boogie"
Matt-"Joshua" by Blyss

Sophomore Year
ANTHEM: "Breathe No More" by Evanescence
Friends
Nate Hunsaker-"Come Original" by 311
Mitch-"45" by Shinedown
Corrinne-"Witches Chorus" (italian opera)
Matt-"Far Away" by Nickelback

Summer in Dutch John
ANTHEM: "May" by Lifehouse
Choosing to leave logan: "New Strings" by Miranda Lambert
Friends
Alyssa-"Boogie in Your Butt" by Eddie Murphy
Ryan-"I like Big Butts" by Sir Mixalot
Dylan-"Pour Some Sugar On Me" by Def Leppard
Matt-"Hey There Delilah" by Plain White T's

Final Fall in Logan
ANTHEM: "Big Casino" by Jimmy Eat World
Thoughts about Cedar: "So Long Astoria" by the Ataris
Friends
Brooke-"Love at Home"
Maybe-"Sweet Dreams" by Marilyn Manson
Josh-"Better than Me" by Hinder
Nate Stettler-"Freak on a Leash" by Korn
Sara W-Golden Girls Theme
Linda-"Hooked on an 8-Second Ride" by (Chris Ledoux?)
Britta-"Love Me Tender" haha.
Randy-"Gold Digger"
Phil-"Renegade" by Styx
John-"Jump" by Kris Kross

Can't Sleep

(originally posted on Myspace)

Monday, November 26, 2007

Can’t Sleep Current mood: anxious So I left my friends' place so I could come home and sleep. It isn't working. I feel like Dutch John all over: "I work at 6 tomorrow morning, but I can't sleep tonight, despite my efforts." There is so much on my mind. May I begin by saying that all the boys I never wanted to find out about each other (for one reason or another) are starting to, and things are actually unraveling nicely. There have been no major confrontations as of yet. This is good, since I feel I did my part to keep the commitment level low. Speaking of committment is delving into reasons why I'm still awake. I am so excited for the cruise over spring break. I love my friends so much and it's a little funny that they think I'm joking when I tell them they're practically family to me. Sure our blood is different, but, well...I never had much of a family. Just my brother and my friends. Things are getting better. I must admit that committment has been on my mind, not just with the cruise. He has been on my mind. After I worked so hard to get him out of my thoughts, he's back; him and his eyes that, even after these years, still cause me to stop breathing. Sunday, I found out he will be in Cedar for spring semester. He says he can't figure out why. The following Friday, he came to visit and I told him I will also be there. I don't know why. Seeing him again sparked everything I fought so hard to move past. He and I hadn't "hung out" in two and a half years. And, as a side note, how did he get so hot? He's always been one of the most attractive people I had ever met, but this time was different. I did all I could to avoid looking at him for more than half a second, especially in the eyes. Even his teeth are perfect. This may or may not classify as a first date, but it was so backwards. He is the most amazing person I ever met and the best friend I have ever had (or at least he used to be...) Questions about beliefs and values never came up, because we already know those answers. That has been the basis of our friendship. We had a normal "first date" conversation, which was odd, all things considered. Eventually, we had to go our separate ways, only after sitting in the car for a few minutes deciding when we can meet up again, and all in amazement that we will be living in the same town. I accidentally caught his gaze yet again, and, as seemed to be the usual case, we both became silent. I was quick to look away. I can't let this flood in so easily as if I never pushed it out...sigh. I can't get those burning eyes out of my memory. The feelings and reactions occur now exactly as they did the very first time our eyes met. That's how this whole thing got started: the only set of eyes that ever made me stop breathing. So I wonder what I might say if a person asked me how many people I was dating. "Define 'dating.'" By my judgement of casual dating, I would say 6, one of whom is already in Cedar. What is going to happen when I suddenly lose the desire to have a different guy for every day of the week? What has he done to me? This is so weird. Currently listening : Hey There Delilah By Plain White T’s Release date: 09 May, 2006

Relationships

(originally posted on Myspace)

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

Relationships Current mood: content I just thought I would put my two cents in the hubbub about friends and dating. Here are some ground rules in my life, I hope you have some too! GENERAL -First and foremost, I would like to say that I don't want anyone to come between me and the Saviour, and I refuse to be the person to break that bond in someone else's life. I don't care if you're my husband or my roommate; it's just not going to happen. Please don't try to tempt me. You're wasting your time. -I give free back massages, anytime. -Chances are that I like you a LOT more than you think I do. -If you're reading this, I want you to know that I would take a bullet for you. -If I tell you I love you (or someone else) I mean it, maybe not like "let's get married," but more like "this person is so amazing!" -I have never met anyone who loved his or her self as much as I did. FRIENDSHIP -Friendship is thicker than blood. I've probably made a lot of sacrifices for you that you don't need to know about, and I'd gladly do it again. Don't be afraid to ask for a favour. -I won't be your friend on Myspace unless I consider you a friend in real life. -I strongly believe in the phrase "bros before ho's" so if I don't take too kindly to your significant other, that's why. Nothing personal. -Don't think I'll turn my back on you because you made a mistake or two. Chances are that I already know about it anyway. I stand beside my friends in all their decisions, and if I think you're making the wrong decision, I'll let you know, but I won't give up on you or turn away. -If I haven't been there for you, I'm sorry. I didn't know. I want everyone to keep in mind that I have a reputation for listening to everyone's problems. If you need a shoulder to cry on, call me. I'll come running. Just like every time before. -I have every intention to be your best friend in the whole world. DATING -I date to marry, so if you're not interested in the temple, you and I are not going to happen. Be satisfied with friendship. -Stop agreeing with every word I say and acting like I know everything. If you don't challenge me, teach me, or run with me, I'm not interested. -Don't be offended if I choose my friends over you on a Friday night. -I am more interested in philosophy than poetry (but both are nice) -If you can keep up with me, I'm automatically interested in you (whether it's a good idea or not; I can't help it.) -Most of my friends are guys. You'll need to be ok with that. -While I like flowers, buying me red roses is a surefire way to kill any interest I may have had in you. -I'm not impressed by your money, clothes, car, or the fact that you know everything you could learn in any textbook. -I AM impressed by your devotion to God, your love of people, ability to feel, your creativity, and your passion. -I have a huge phobia of guys getting bored with me. If I ditch you, that might be why. It's better to leave early than to let a great guy get sick of me. In short, I'd just like to give a shout-out to all my friends. You are all so great! And I hope all of you have some convictions when it comes to friends and dating Conviction is what makes life fun! Currently listening : I'll Be By Edwin McCain Release date: 08 September, 1998

Dating and Engagement (but not Marriage)

(originally posted on Myspace)

Monday, June 05, 2006

Dating and Engagement (but not Marriage) Current mood: tired Category: Romance and Relationships Ok, so today I discovered that yet another friend is engaged. August 15th. I guess this whole mindset started when I explained to a dear friend that I, like every other girl, am working my way towards marriage. I was taken aback when he asked who the lucky guy was. Great question, Fish. Haha. The question really made me think about a lot of things. First thing, it freaks me out that everyone is getting engaged. It's a concept I can't really comprehend. Don't get me wrong, I've helped with my sister's wedding, and my best friend's date is rapidly approaching. I still can't imagine being engaged or even in a relationship. I didn't really start dating till about six months ago, and...to think people younger than me, a girl I went to high school with, was engaged at that time, and married now. It's enough to make anyone wonder what's really going on, and if this is normal.